Just One Dream

This one conveys the constant sense of frustration that marked my high school years and much of my twenties.  It's much more melodramatic than what it actually was, but when you're not focused on God, perceptions do seem to be a lot more dire.

Disappointment is
Something that seems
Like it's constantly present
Whenever I dream.

Happiness is
A girl of my own
But all I can do
Is dream on and on.

I have to wait and hope.
It's all that I can do.
But wouldn't it be great
If just one dream came true?

I wish real hard
But it's not enough.
I'm quite surprised
That I didn't give up.

I wish I couldn't dream.
Then it wouldn't be so bad.
I wouldn't have to cry
Over the girl I never had.

Dreams are never worth
The hurt they put me through.
I'd like to think that maybe soon
Just one dream would come true.

It's gonna happen again
But I don't know what to do.
This dream's gonna really hurt
'Cause this one's all about you.

I don't want to sleep.
I just want to scream.
All I ever want in the world
Is to live just one dream.

3/16/01