One Special Girl

One of many poems that was meant to capture my feelings at the time I wrote it.  I'm not sure who I wrote it about, but I'm sure I could apply it to more than one.

There's one special girl
Who's as great as can be
And though I love her,
She doesn't love me.

My feelings were deep.
They felt so right.
I'd stay awake thinking of her
Each and every night.

I wanted to give her
All that I had.
Now I know that I can't
And inside I feel sad.

The best thing to do
Is just not to worry.
But how can I do that
When I'm constantly told, "Sorry?"

She told me she didn't want to hurt me.
That showed me that she cares.
I know there'll be someone who loves me
But why can't they be here instead of out there?

I don't understand
Why I have to wait so long.
The thought that scares me most
Is living my life alone.

We're still quite good friends.
We get along pretty well
But I'm still a regular customer
At the Heartbreak Hotel.

I'm not mad at anyone.
Her reasons I understood.
Things probably would've fallen apart,
So saying no was for the good.

So I'm kinda hurt
And a little confused
But that's what's expected
And it's better than if I'd been used.

Could there be a better future
And even a better world?
Raindrops will fall until then
As I silently cry over one special girl.