The Girl of My Dreams

An early poem, and one of my longest.  Fortunately, my self esteem has risen considerably since this was written.  Can you tell I wrote this in high school?

I have searched long
For a girl to love
And there's a certain kind
I'm dreaming of.

Beautiful hair.
Warm, loving eyes.
A comforting smile
To brighten darkened skies.

Though in my eyes I'm ugly,
I'm handsome to her.
The love she holds for me
Will never deter.

The time she spends
Is often with me.
She finds qualities in me
Others wouldn't see.

She lives nearby.
She goes to my school.
That dates that we have
Are totally cool.

We talk a lot together
About so many things
Nothing can match the happiness
Being with her brings.

She keeps my feet on the ground
And my head screwed on straight.
She comes to me for help
When things aren't going so great.

A picture's worth a thousand words.
One of her is worth a billion.
While other relationships are falling apart,
Ours will continue buildin'.

Why must I wait?
I may never know.
Loneliness scares me
Yet on and on it goes.

It's not that I don't try,
It just never works out.
I get so discouraged ever time
And filled with so much doubt.

The only things that keep me going
Is that one girl I seek
And friends who give me advice
So I can survive through the week.

Just an occasional hug
And sometimes even a kiss.
Is it asking too much
Not to miss out on this?

I wish even more to have her
Every time I think of her.
If I could just get the chance.
I have so much to offer.

Friendship, love
And flowers galore.
For this special girl
All this is in store.

I'd love to take her out.
We'd have such a good time.
I'd care for her so much
She'd want to be mine.

I want someone to hold
Someone who'll love me for me.
How long will this search take?
I'll guess I'll have to wait and see.